Gratitude

I’m BACK !

I woke up this morning, a drizzly Sunday morning, the morning after watching a wonderful play by Shakespeare, performed by local talents including my stepson Gabe, and I thought, ‘it’s time to take up blogging again’. This morning, I have fire in my belly (and in my wood stove)  and I’m “sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad” . So dramatic ….but the life I’m living now is so changed, so different, I hardly recognise my dreams, my skin, or my lover and life companion. (more on all that in the next entry)

 

So I found this, my long lost blog site,  and lo and behold!,  there was a saved draft from December 2013 !!! As follows…..

 

 

Today, I made a vow.

I thought that it is about time to think about how little gratitude I have been feeling. So I’m jolting my memory- remembering the great things in my life. And I’m vowing to be grateful for at least one thing a day !

For a start, all I need to look at is my financial position. Compared to even two years ago, I’m blessed with access to a lot more financial resources, and I’m grateful for that. It’s a great feeling when you actually realise, that you are getting closer to some big goals in life ! What a wonderful mind we have- we have the amazing ability to choose what we want to be, how we want to live, and BANG, as long as we have passion for it, we can make it happen. Well, it doesn’t happen overnight (mostly), but we all know how fast a year or two go by and so while we are working passionately towards a goal, feeling fulfilled in the process, we get to savour what we’ve been aiming for. Two times lucky !

Of course there are set-backs, sometimes a few too many. Sometimes we need to change direction, slightly or dramatically, and we need to listen to the signs all around us. Another blessing !

But the more I look at the magical side of life, consciousness, the brilliant people around me, the adoration of my sweet lil dogs, the massive 4 cm growth  (in one day) that my baby tomato plants in the garden achieved, music, humour, – the list is endless, the more I feel that life is a magical forest in which I get to be a unicorn. If I want to.

Blessings all around !   🙂

Motivation

I thought I might mention that magical word.

It’s a great motivator when you think that in 2.5 years you could be, like me, living of investing in property full time ! And it’s not even a full time job, if you don’t want it to be- so you’re not replacing one slavery ( the slavery of working for the MAN) with another (the enslaving of oneself by oneself).

Yes, I am proud to say that I could afford to drop my other business as soon as our next property settlement happens (only weeks away)!!!!! It’s a wonderful feeling and I got to tell someone in the supermarket today that I’m about to be FREE.

Not that I don’t love my other job, I just don’t like the business… I’ll explain in a later post.

To think that I can choose when to work and how long for and that the only deadlines I have are the ones I set myself is just heavenly.

Not only that, I’m actually on the brink of making some serious money ! Or if I want to, I can just potter and do one per year or so, and laugh all the way home. There’s always about $50 000 to make on a property, and I can easily live on that. And give heaps to charity. And have holidays.

I like to think that abundance happens, and like everything, we have to let it. I have worked very hard trying to change my “poverty consciousness”, which was , as I see it now, just a reaction to my parents. I felt as a child that money and social standing (in the village life) was more important to my parents than people.  Don’t get me wrong, I think they did the best they could and felt that providing us kids with more material security than necessary was the right thing to do. So I took a long time to understand that money wasn’t the evil, heartless thing some people make it out to be- when they have experienced people close to them being too focused on financing life rather than living it- but that money is just a means and we can choose to use it to do good things or not so good things.
And also don’t get me wrong- I’m not blaming my parents for not having time for me or always trying to buy me clothes when I wanted some love- that is in the past and I have only myself to blame for not learning the lessons faster here: Whatever you focus on is what happens. And bringing up children in extreme poverty but with lots of love is still not a balanced way of living. And a butterfly is not a recovering caterpillar.

So my motivation has changed and grown over the years. I started off just wanting to change the fact that I could never afford anything and therefore kept myself from dreaming or thinking BIG (as if I was not worth anything). Then I wanted to create wealth to move it from the first world to the third (feeling guilty for having a better life than many). After that I lost hope for a while, because by then, I had done a lot of financial education in the property section, but could not get started on my dreams( for many reasons).

Now, I feel that I must look after myself first and create myself a home that I haven’t had for almost forever. (I must have moved house 20+ times in the last 20 years). Because I’m worth it and because I’m not going to get ‘drunk’ on having too much money and wasting it. In the meantime, I’m already giving to charity, and when I have given myself enough back for all the hard work, I will do even more charity. One of my huge motivators is to provide energy efficient, cheap to run homes with beautiful edible gardens all around for people to rent and enjoy. Because I’ve never had that good fortune myself, I want to give that to others.

I’m almost there 🙂